poppy

this afternoon while éamon was napping, i went for a walk to john's deli for a few items by myself. i like that i'm deeply connected to him, but don't feel lost without him (it probably helps that he's in good hands with b AND he was sleeping). just as i expected parenting to rock my world more than it has, i also expected my identity to become more scrambled by having a baby. i'm pleasantly surprised by this.

transitioning into this new experience has been remarkably similar to my transition into my relationship with brendan. before there was just one (me), but when i joined my life with brendan, my circle grew larger and it encompassed us both. then there was two (us). our circle has expanded yet again to welcome another person who will live and grow with us, and will eventually grow away. he's definitely his own little person, and i'm excited to learn more about him as he grows, but my life isn't just him, nor is his life mine. now we are three.

this said, relationships tend to blur the line between where we begin and where someone else ends. i like that éamon has reveals parts of me that i never knew where there before. a tender side i didn't know i was capable of. it's nice.

the saltiest sea knows its own way to me.