sometimes i feel that being responsible for other people is too much for me. sometimes i barely have my own crap together, much less be responsible for keeping track of other people's stuff. to make matters worse, people think i'm on top of everything, and they put their trust in me to pull everything off. that is too much responsibility. any amount of being on the ball requires a lot of effort on my part. 

i know it's a small thing, but today is this track and field event for eamon's whole school at caraco field with lots of other schools. to help keep track of everyone, they asked that the kids all wear their school shirts (with the logo on it). i bought one for eamon for christmas, but it's much too big, so i put it away. he sometimes finds it and likes to wear it, so i knew he would be thrilled at being able to wear it today. so on thursday, i found it in the extra drawer, and i was quite pleased that i was able to put my hand to it without difficulty. do you think i could find it today, when i needed to?!?!?! NOPE. i looked everywhere. which is extremely difficult with this #@%! cast on my foot. to make matters worse, eamon had procrastinated getting dressed because he had a sliver on his foot that he would not let me remove. and lots of crying ensued. my kid is a major procrastinator with anything unpleasant. which goes against all my logic to just get through something unpleasant as quickly as possible. it frustrates me to no end that i can't reason with him. 

anyway, his shirt is still missing. i kind of hope this event gets postponed because of the weather, and we can have another go at finding it.