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well here we are.

it's the night before my birthday. my birthday eve if you will.

i don't even know what to say. i am well. i am happy. 30 was great. and not just because of my legal union with brendan. thirty has been very liberating. it's fantastic being out of my 20s. i feel comfortable with who i am. i'm struggling with my weight and wish my hair was longer, but aside from that i don't have an major qualms. my life is peaceful and i'm not anxious or burdened.

i love the way that in spite of all changes, life pretty much stays the same. i'm here in the maxi pad. i have the same job, same family, same mojomobile, same friends, same kitties. i have a new legal partner/housemate, i have a new boss, i have a new niece, new in-laws. i guess life changes slowly. so gradually that at times change can go unnoticed. i like that. i think it's the right speed for me. even when i've been impatient or overwhelmed. in those times i just need some perspective. i don't usually see the big picture. i'm present, sometimes too present that i'm unable to see 5 minutes from now. my biggest blindspots are in the realm of time.

joanna was our special guest at book club tonight. it was great having her. i don't want to say that i wish she didn't live in australia, but it would be nice if australia was closer and we could chat and knit regularly. she's a good egg. there's no one like jo.

then what kind of scale compares the weight of two beauties.