i'm super grumpy at the moment. really crabby and passive aggressive, while at the same time quite overtly aggressive at home and at work. i don't know what's going on. it was making brendan bonkers last night. i reminded myself of knickers, which made me a little sick to my stomach. bossy, controling, overbearing, nothing good enough. i wonder if that's a learn behaviour or if i just ended up there because i was worn and cranky. my "set in my ways" side is starting to come out. can someone please help me figure out how to say "i really like honey garlic sausages best, can you buy some for me please?" without sounding ungrateful and like my partner is a failure? because i don't know what to do with myself, and my attempts are coming out wrong. plus, i don't want to passive aggressively go out and buy some myself behind brendan's back. i love my b, and i want to build him up! not cut him down :S
it's hard sharing a computer. it means we're always dooking it out for the mouse.
i've been doing the YFC newsletter for 7 years. i had a chat with bren in the fall about it and she pointed out that i'm doing it out of obligation and not because it's life-giving or enjoyable. i like that bren is constantly bringing the words "life-giving" to my attention, and reminding me that life and it's activities are about more than just going thru the motions. she's not willing to just do something, it needs to have value. anyways, after looking at my commitments i decided that the newsletter was something i could resign from. 7 years is a good tenure, and it's fair for me to move on. so i gave my notice, informing them that the christmas newsletter will be my last. and so now the time has come for me to assemble this final newsletter and it's more painful than usual. i always found the last assignment of the semester to be the hardest. the one that required the greatest amount of endurance. the thing about about the newsletter is that if i don't start on it before 7 it's pretty must pointless to try. and i've found that it usually involves a few false starts. the frustrating thing is that since i didn't finish it last night i'm going to have to miss storytellers tonight.
i like that every time shannon goes home to the soo she writes me these big long emails about her adventures there. it's like i'm her diary. i like it and look forward to her tales of sneakiness.
they cost us next to nothing. and i think they're totally awesome. he's a good cutter :) plus, it was a good excuse to buy beer.
i've been doing the YFC newsletter for 7 years. i had a chat with bren in the fall about it and she pointed out that i'm doing it out of obligation and not because it's life-giving or enjoyable. i like that bren is constantly bringing the words "life-giving" to my attention, and reminding me that life and it's activities are about more than just going thru the motions. she's not willing to just do something, it needs to have value. anyways, after looking at my commitments i decided that the newsletter was something i could resign from. 7 years is a good tenure, and it's fair for me to move on. so i gave my notice, informing them that the christmas newsletter will be my last. and so now the time has come for me to assemble this final newsletter and it's more painful than usual. i always found the last assignment of the semester to be the hardest. the one that required the greatest amount of endurance. the thing about about the newsletter is that if i don't start on it before 7 it's pretty must pointless to try. and i've found that it usually involves a few false starts. the frustrating thing is that since i didn't finish it last night i'm going to have to miss storytellers tonight.
i like that every time shannon goes home to the soo she writes me these big long emails about her adventures there. it's like i'm her diary. i like it and look forward to her tales of sneakiness.
they cost us next to nothing. and i think they're totally awesome. he's a good cutter :) plus, it was a good excuse to buy beer.
i value my mobility.
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