i'm starting to realize something... i'm kind of a planner. that surprises me, because i think of plans as confining and rigid.
i'm known as the sister who doesn't plan, while joy is the planner - her life operates on an highly organized schedule. the first time i heard someone say about me that i don't make plans i grumbled under my breath "i make plans, they just don't work out". i guess that should've told me something about myself, but it didn't. i just adopted that projection of myself as part of my identity. in hindsight that was a mistake.
admittedly, life after 18 did not look the way i expected, neither did life after 24, or 27. and i'm happy about that. i like the place i arrived in, and recognize my own scheming would have missed the mark. i've taken to thinking of myself as a dreamer. i imagine possibilities, and later i imagine different possibilies as circumstances change. one thing i learned from my twarted salad-day plans is that i can't hold fast to any path because you never know what may, and will, come along unexpectedly. that just adds to the magic and my wonder at the possibilities.
i once made a new year's resolution to not plan anything. which released me from having an agenda or a schedule. i still dreamed and schemed, but i let go of the notion of having a life-plan and instead allowed myself to figure it all out as i go. which i think i've learned to do.
b is not a planner. i plan, and (thankfully) he goes along with my plans. that being said, i do plan things that i know he'll like, and he doesn't hesitate to protest when i offer a course of action that he doesn't like. in those cases i go back to the drawing board and come back with an alternative that will suit us both. b is all about "collaborating" instead of "compromising. i like that approach, it lends itself to the best end result.
on sunday, i thought about b's job situation, tuesday... where to go on vacation next year, yesterday... losing weight on my new exercise/diet plan, today... how and how much will we save for a downpayment. i get really exhilarated by these things. it gives me purpose, a reason to thrifty, a reason to be mindful of what i eat. since life is not stationary and i like having an idea of which way i'm moving.
so let the record show that i, lesley lorimer, plan stuff. and that i also dream and scheme when i have any spare moment. because i like to.
i'm known as the sister who doesn't plan, while joy is the planner - her life operates on an highly organized schedule. the first time i heard someone say about me that i don't make plans i grumbled under my breath "i make plans, they just don't work out". i guess that should've told me something about myself, but it didn't. i just adopted that projection of myself as part of my identity. in hindsight that was a mistake.
admittedly, life after 18 did not look the way i expected, neither did life after 24, or 27. and i'm happy about that. i like the place i arrived in, and recognize my own scheming would have missed the mark. i've taken to thinking of myself as a dreamer. i imagine possibilities, and later i imagine different possibilies as circumstances change. one thing i learned from my twarted salad-day plans is that i can't hold fast to any path because you never know what may, and will, come along unexpectedly. that just adds to the magic and my wonder at the possibilities.
i once made a new year's resolution to not plan anything. which released me from having an agenda or a schedule. i still dreamed and schemed, but i let go of the notion of having a life-plan and instead allowed myself to figure it all out as i go. which i think i've learned to do.
b is not a planner. i plan, and (thankfully) he goes along with my plans. that being said, i do plan things that i know he'll like, and he doesn't hesitate to protest when i offer a course of action that he doesn't like. in those cases i go back to the drawing board and come back with an alternative that will suit us both. b is all about "collaborating" instead of "compromising. i like that approach, it lends itself to the best end result.
on sunday, i thought about b's job situation, tuesday... where to go on vacation next year, yesterday... losing weight on my new exercise/diet plan, today... how and how much will we save for a downpayment. i get really exhilarated by these things. it gives me purpose, a reason to thrifty, a reason to be mindful of what i eat. since life is not stationary and i like having an idea of which way i'm moving.
so let the record show that i, lesley lorimer, plan stuff. and that i also dream and scheme when i have any spare moment. because i like to.
here in the land of frozen hands.
2 comments:
Shouldn't you call yourself by your full name Lesley Confederation Basin Lorimer?
your blog makes me smile
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