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bren and i concluded that 2011 is significantly less attractive in writing than 2010. even saying it is less lovely.

ah, the new year. after seeing the gertrudes at the KRC last night, b and i went to the erbs and hungout with jill, rach, and jase. we played crokinole and drank things. it was great. i concluded that my ideal new year's celebration is just a small gathering with good friends.

i like looking forward into a new year. i like imagining the possibility. i like wondering what will happen. how things will be different this time next year. i wouldn't have thought b and i would be married at this point when imagining life on this day last year. i thought we'd get married in january or february of this year, but things change, plans change. i like that.

i'm not one for new year's resolutions, but i do like starting a new year with a new habit in the making. to take on a new practise and make it part of who i am. last year i planned to learn to say no to things, and i think i've succeeded. i've decided that this year i'm going to eat smaller portions. my instincts are to eat more than i should of things, and i need to change that if i'm going to lose weight. i've decided with each meal or snack, to consider how much i instinctively want to eat, and then cut it in half. so far i'm doing pretty good, and when i fail i'm usually pretty aware of the fact that i ate more than i should've. so, here's to a year of learning to consume less.

there's a few things on the docket for 2011:
• visit beck in quebec city in february
• trip to ireland in march/april
• road trip to cornerstone music fest in june/july
• reach my goal weight and feel comfortable with my body
• go to a bingo hall with shannon

:) i feel happy about this year. i feel freer than i have before, and more content. i'm becoming less tortured as i get older. i've gotta go. we have a dinner date at the melles's down the street.

she moves like an old gypsy woman but swears she’s a girl.