spiral

it's valentine's day, and i've never been one for celebrating it. however, i do believe in embracing each circumstance i find myself in. i lived well and for the most part celebrated my singleness on v-day in the past. there's part of me that can't help but feel like something of a traitor for participating in this holiday, but do feel that my single self would disapprove of sitting it out when i have a great partner to appreciate.

b and i don't have a lot of traditions yet, but definitely have some in the making. this year, we did two things for valentine's day. on saturday we went to harper's for dinner, and tonight we're exchanging lists. this was partly inspired by storytellers on wednesday – which was a list night. we had different categories and had to make lists accordingly. it was really fun. i don't consider myself a list lover, but i am a quote lover, and lists are like a collection of abstract quotes. anyways, i suggested to brendan that this year (and perhaps each year) for valentine's day we give each other a list of our favourite things about each other. when he gets home from work we'll exchange them. it's been really lovely so far actually; collecting qualities, experiences, traits that are significant and special. focusing on your favourite things about your partner makes you fall in love a little bit more. over the weekend while we compiled our lists b would often say to me when i did different things "that's going on the list", and it made me secretly beam a little bit. i hope we always do this. i like how over the years our dynamics and needs will change, and we'll learn more and more about each other, which means a fresh new appreciation each year. i don't think we'll ever run out of things for the list if we're really investing in each other and looking, really looking.

i just finished freaks and geeks episode 14 of 18. i'll be sad when i finish. i'm growing quite attached to bill, and will miss his tremendously awkward adolescence. this show is growing on me. i was skeptical at first, but the character development has been quite positive. i like looking up the actors on wikipedia to find out what they're doing now. martin starr (bill) is my favourite, because as an adult he seems like a really cool guy inspite the fact that he played an extremely geeky kid. like check this out.

there's a hole in my head where the rain comes in.