naturist

last night we carved pumpkins with andrew and shannon. brendan had never carved a pumpkin before, and he did NOT like the scooping out the insides part. funnily enough, when i mentioned this to his mom today she said she didn't realize he'd never carved a pumpkin before. that they used to do it as a family, and thought he'd helped, but in hindsight it was ben. she said he didn't like to do "yucky" things. he hasn't changed.

we worked together on our pumpkin, while andrew and shannon each worked on their own. pickings were a little slim at the grocery store, all really big pumpkins. but i managed to find two medium sized ones for the cardiffs, and took a big one for brendan and myself. in the end, we ended up with three super pumpkins that we'll put on our stoop tomorrow night.

i really wanted to dress up as the girl in 'short skirt, long jacket', but it'll be cold out and i haven't gotten around to planning the costume. i really like the idea of having finger nails that shine like justice. i'd probably paint them bright red or something, but i want to crochet tonight and that would be problematic. i'm currently working on a purse, and so far it's pretty good. my one concern is that i often work hard on a project, then don't wear it very often. i hope i like this purse when i'm finished and use with frequently. the problem with knitted or crocheted bags is things like pens fall out. i'm considering putting in a lining, but haven't yet decided if i want to take it that extra step further.

lately, just on tuesdays when i start work early to accommodate my shift at the hospital, it's still completely dark out when i leave the house. it looks like it's 10:00 at night, and that i made some kind of error with my alarm clock.

some days it's just really natural and easy to believe everything's going to be ok.

all those sleepless nights,
and all those wasted days.