interview

ARGH!!!!

i just read in the news that b.b. king is playing at bluesfest in ottawa this year. b.b. king is one of brendan's biggest music heros - he sure gives eric clapton a run for his money. i remember brendan once saying to me "everyone associates me with eric clapton, but all i've ever wanted to was to sound like b.b. king". so anyways, when i read this, i thought to myself "i wonder if there's any way we can swing this...". but when i went to the bluesfest site, i discovered that b.b. is playing on OUR BABY'S DUE DATE! ARGH!!! now, i realize that the chances of him being born on time is slim, but it seems unwise for us to drive up to ottawa for a concert when i could go into labour at any time. oh well. i guess this is part of our life changes - can't just go to any old concert once little so-and-so arrives, even if its to see a blues legend.

when i was sick last week i watched shawshank redemption. at one point red talks about prisoners becoming institutionalized - at first they hate the walls that keep them in, but they get used to them, and eventually they need them. this morning i was very frazzled on my way into work, one thing after another ended up being more complicated then expected. but eventually i made it into work and got settled in my 8x8 blue cube. i felt all my tension and discouragement start to melt away. i realized that there's something soothing about that prison cell of mine. i used to hate those walls, but now they soothe me. funny how that is. i don't even know when that change happened. i guess i just got used to them and they bring me comfort. i noticed it when i got back from berlin too, it felt good being back in my pod. i don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing.

all i've even known is out here.