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it's so dark out. it feels like bedtime.

after eamon was down and the dishes were done, i sat out front with a cider in the dark. it was nice. i liked the easy pace. it's funny, because even though it was the only thing i wanted to do, i felt rushed. like i needed to move on to the next thing. i'd overcome that tendency while i'm on mat leave. it's disappointing that it's back, but i'm not surprised. just goes to show that i need to make a habit of doing that. it's easy for me to get swept up in a fast pace that i'm unhappy with. i need to counter act that.

this might be the first evening since july that i had nothing i had to do. what a nice change. i think i'll lie around a bit and probably read before heading to bed early.