dandelions

my walls look dinged up and all shabby. i've started taking down my pictures and posters. i can't get over how impatient i feel to move. i'd move right now if i could. its not that i dislike this house in any way, i think its more like "lets get this thing over with". its like when we're at the airport in england to come home i'm always really anxious to leave. its not that i hate england, because i really love it and want to relish every moment there. its more like, if i HAVE to leave i want to go right away and not look back so i don't feel sad about it.

i can't help wonder... are you growing tried of hearing about my move? i think about my move 75% of the time, which i'm glad about because it stops me from thinking about the other issue that would be clogging my mind if it wasn't preoccupied.

so i finally went and cancelled my Y membership today. is it lame that i went on a wednesday because i knew my problem in the red t-shirt would be there? i agree, i'm a bad person.

knickers tells me today that we're getting a summer student. they always hire employee's children, so i asked "do you know who it is?" she said "so-and-so's daughter" than proceeded to refer to her as IT for the next 10 minutes. so strange. well this should be interesting. i won't be the youngest anymore, as knickers said "you won't be the baby anymore!!!" she also said that this will test my "supervisory skills". ya, SURE it will... but yes, this may work to my advantage. let me fill you in a little on what i've been up to lately careerwise – i asked for a promotion. now i won't go into all the details, but i'm MORE than deserving of an upgrade. this may come as a surprise to you since i've openly admitted to obsessive-compulsively checking my email at work, and from time to time i visit my friends' blogs, BUT i only do that when i need a break or when i'm not busy. so we'll see what happens, she gave me no promises but said she's assess me at my mid-year review, which is in august. although, she made a comment today that implied she won't wait that long. i dunno. i guess i shouldn't get my hopes up. but FRIG! i'm an asset to that company!! i hope i get along with this girl well and that she doesn't annoy me. i can easily tire of the "ooh, i'm a hot-shot student" mentality. no, i don't mean YOU.

i think i'm going to get ready for bed now. i woke up really well-rested after my earily night on monday. i didn't get to work any eariler, but i did have more time to lie around and go slowly.

i'm thirsty but i have nothing to drink. except i have some ribena. i heart ribena, it reminds me of my granny's house. enough about me... so what's up with you lately?

i try to stand up but i can't find my feet.