disheveled

i have a lot to say today. so in order to maximum this entry without becoming long and boring i'm going to share some things in point form before getting to the climax of my day.

• i saw two blue herrons today. (i know, not too engaging but still a point of interest – cut me some slack i'm still just warming up)
• i skipped the Y today and went for an hour walk to find a gift for devious.
• my co-worker in korean sent me an asian fan as a gift. i'm not exactly sure why she did, but i really like it. this is now my 3rd gift from my asian co-workers. why don't my european co-workers send me gifts!! what's up with that?? i got a t-shirt from taiwan and a change purse ummm... also from taiwan. this fan is way nicer than the one i bought from some asian lady for one dollar while in line for the ferry to the statue of liberty.
• i really enjoyed walking in the rain today. it was really nice. i just remember feeling "wow!! i'm not in a rush, its nice out, life doesn't get much better than this".
• i've been anxious all day because i wrote an email to a friend but i haven't heard back from her and now i'm all in a panic that i said something wrong. foot in mouth disease.
• lately i feel like my insides are being squished by my upper body. i think its something to do with the way i sit at my desk. so to counter that i tried to sit really up right all day and that just made my back hurt too.
• i think i own (and wear regularly) 10 different pairs of shoes. melinda is intrigued by men who own a lot of shoes. 10 probably isn't a lot compared to most girls, but i wonder what it says about me. if you were to read "number of shoes owned" like someone could read tea leaves.
• i've concluded there's nothing more disappointing from an email from yourself. i feel like "aw man!! i've already read this!!!"

now i've reached the main course of today's entry. the earlier stuff were just the appetizers.

today is devious stares birthday. we had quite the adverture trying to find a resturant that was open – apparently the universe didn't want us to eat. however, we eventually found a place and had loads of fun. "we" being beckie and chris, and me with my "date" melissa. it was fun to get to know chris better, i especially appreciated that he seemed to think i was HILARIOUS and laughed at most things i said. i like people like, they make me feel like i'm on a roll. kingston is a small town, he may be friends with my problem in the red t-shirt, if we're talking about the same guy. man, i'm drawing a blank, i wish i could remember more from dinner because it was a blast. oh the awesomest thing happened... our waiter carded beckie which is hilarious because its her 28th birthday. NICE. ok well here's some pics in honor of d. this first pic is of us on new years with little r. and here's another one of my pal beckie, i love this picture because she looks so beautifully melancholic.

well my pjs are in the dryer so i don't know what i'm going to wear to bed. i'd prefer it not to be damp whatever it is. so i should take of these socks. i've realized i really like wearing shoes around my house. i don't know what i'm going to do when i move because i told my landlady that i'd remove my shoes when i come in to be considerate of the neighbours below. well i didn't tell her that, but i agreed to it. good night.

this is the way God made me.
this is just the way i'm meant to be.