falling

it's infecting me. one tiny conflict is eating away at me, and the thing is, it's not something i even care about. and yet i'm finding it's taking the pleasure out of my day. i hope i've seen the end of it. i've washed my hands.

i think a good nights sleep is in order. this cold weather is dampening my spirits like a wet blanket. i'm lethargic and overly sensitive.

throughout the day i found i was feeling a little isolated and detached. something's knocked my dominos and set them all off. however, i found upon arriving at next for jon sears' going away party, i was on the upswing. all i needed was a little shot of community, and i felt a lot better. i had a really good time, it was fun just hangin out all together.

the silence feels longer due to the state of my mind.

i sat beside a famous guy on the train to toronto. i looked him up today on wikipedia, he was on blue murder. he was kind of pompous and obnoxious, talking on his handy all the way to belleville. i found it amusing nonetheless, i laughed at him when i was looking the other way.

i've called my landlord to seek his approval to paint my back porch. it just has faux wood-paneling right now. i think it would look much better painted white. it's the entryway of my house for crying out loud, i want it to look half-decent. the rest of the place is really super! i'm going to presume that if i don't hear back from him that it's ok. i'm going to paint the stairwell this bright turquoise colour little r gave me. exciting. i love painting.

i got TWO phone books today. does anyone need a spare one?? they STILL have my name spelled wrong. ARGH!!

he is a man who will never cease to amaze me. for that, and many other reasons, i will hold him in my heart always. he will conjure up warm fuzzy feelings in me all my days.

please don't let this turn into something it's not.