oil and vinegar

all i can say is melissa is a genius, this hot chocolate is heavenly.

i have so much on my mind. prepare yourself, this may be a long one.

1) i went to the banff film festival last night with the lovells and co. this year they didn't have any cultural stuff, which was a little disappointing, but it was still really good. right on schedule it got me questioning my cubicle living and wondering if i should be doing more with my youth. these days are fleeting, have i done all i'd like to do? and i wonder if i've strapped myself into my cube because i'm afraid to step into the unknown. i don't know, i don't THINK i'm afraid, but how can i be sure? and since it's not fear that holds me back, is it the knowledge of my own limitations? or do i limit myself more than those limitations do? so it goes in my head; questions, and questionable answers.

part 2 of 1) after church today i went down to the goat for some lunch. i went alone, i was sort of hoping i'd find someone at church to eat with, but then when i was there i couldn't be bothered asking anyone to join me. but thankfully, upon arriving at the goat i spotted beckie's friends kate, anne and spencer. being a sunday afternoon in january, the place was really packed, so i joined that trio at their table and i had a lovely time. i can honestly say that i mingle in pretty well with most people, that's something i'm very grateful for, it makes life easy and enjoyable. i got telling them about the festival and how i fear for my cubicle life-style, but anne encouraged me a great deal. she told me that working a day job is highly underrated and that it does still leave me a lot of time for other things. which is true! plus, i WILL get to see the world some day, only it will be over the course of a lifetime instead of a 6 month stint. ah, that's reassuring. now i can go back to work tomorrow seeing it as a means to an end instead of my own personal prision.

2) this afternoon i bought some randy bags. some what you ask? it's a little nylon tote bag that folds up and you can keep in your purse/bag. they're great! i got them at trailhead for $2.99. they're so handy, i used them today to carry home my groceries. yay! this totally helps with my no-plastic bags new year resolution. AND the sexual innuendo is priceless.

3) this afternoon as i walked to and from downtown i considered spontaneity. am i spontaneous or am i rigid? i concluded that i like spontaneity as much as the next guy, but what i can't stand are half-baked ideas that screw everything up. it's not the random-sporadicness that makes me insane, it's the poor planning. you can be unpredictable AND well organized. ok, that kind of sounds like a contradiction, but what i'm saying is, a person can come up with a sudden plan and still execute it well. it doesn't have to be haphazard.

4) i screwed up my tea cozy and i have to rip it out :( oh well, i've never knit with circular needles before and it got twisted. now i understand what they meant in the instructions by "be careful not to twist the stitches".

when routine bites hard,
and ambitions are low,
and resentment rides high,
but emotions won't grow.