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i'm choosing to forget. no more will words bind me. that's so much easier said than done. but the very fact that i want to shed these chains is a start. i can cut them one by one.

i really like the idea of maximizing my name. i need to utilize it more frequently: restLESs, boundLESs, needLESs, fearLESs, tireLESs, wordLESs, fathomLESs. i'm so lucky to have such a name, i definitely need to exploit it more often. right now i'm penniLESs.

fella is just slang for fellow

brenda came over for visit tonight. i like brenda. she's so insightful. i like her insights too. she mentioned this evening how people grow and evolve. that somethings we passionately believe in right now, may be something we don't believe in later. and so on, and so forth. i'm just gonna think about today. what happens in a year, 3 years, 7 years is inconceivable and unalterable. in a way, living as to avoid regrets or embarrassment is kind of futile. pointLESs. i can't guard myself and i can't control anything. i have choices, but they are choices i make when i get there, and not before.

i didn't like looking at him. he was too attractive. it was distracting and possibly inappropriate. it made me conclude that there should be no attractive men. well, there can be one, but just for me.

here's a lovely quote from my book: "tom, in life a person mustn't get everything at once, because then you can't appreciate it".

i'm glad you're back. i've missed you in the hole.

let me be the one you're running to.