we all have our 'thing' that is linked to our most difficult and unflattering trait.
mine is easily being annoyed or irritated. i'm pretty much always annoyed or irritated on some level. it's always right below the surface. even when i'm having a great day, if the right topic comes up in conversation it just spills out. i know other people like this too. i've concluded this low-level, perpetual annoyance is managed through talking out about the latest, most annoying thing to whoever will listen. this usually doesn't involve talking to the annoying person. partly because my annoyance is small, and usually opinion based. plus, i regularly forget about it later on.
this is actually difficult for me to admit, because i'm not proud of it. i'd rather not draw attention to this trait, just in case others haven't noticed it.
all that said, when it comes to irritation and my partner, i let it all hang out. i don't spare him any of my thoughts, frustrations, or unkind words when expressing my annoyance. and the poor guy is blind-sided by my below-the-belt comments that exceed the cutting words and oddly perceptive remarks that only an entitled teenager is capable of. in moments like that, i don't much like myself, but i've just pushed away my closest ally, so i just commit and stand by what i've said. it's too late to recant, so i just dive right in.
i really don't know if it's possible to do things differently. i guess one thing i could do is use my self-awareness skills and try to stop myself before my annoyance snowballs.
mine is easily being annoyed or irritated. i'm pretty much always annoyed or irritated on some level. it's always right below the surface. even when i'm having a great day, if the right topic comes up in conversation it just spills out. i know other people like this too. i've concluded this low-level, perpetual annoyance is managed through talking out about the latest, most annoying thing to whoever will listen. this usually doesn't involve talking to the annoying person. partly because my annoyance is small, and usually opinion based. plus, i regularly forget about it later on.
this is actually difficult for me to admit, because i'm not proud of it. i'd rather not draw attention to this trait, just in case others haven't noticed it.
all that said, when it comes to irritation and my partner, i let it all hang out. i don't spare him any of my thoughts, frustrations, or unkind words when expressing my annoyance. and the poor guy is blind-sided by my below-the-belt comments that exceed the cutting words and oddly perceptive remarks that only an entitled teenager is capable of. in moments like that, i don't much like myself, but i've just pushed away my closest ally, so i just commit and stand by what i've said. it's too late to recant, so i just dive right in.
i really don't know if it's possible to do things differently. i guess one thing i could do is use my self-awareness skills and try to stop myself before my annoyance snowballs.
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