drag

i hate being bored.

it's probably one of the most demotivating and deflating mental states.

it's been one of those days when i can't get myself out of a funk. being at work was dull and i really missed marilyn. i've never been a social butterfly at work. i generally keep to myself, and do my job. but i've enjoyed a handful of more outgoing, chatty workmates over the years. right now i'm in a real dry spell and it's depressing. i kind of feels self-generated. that it's my fault for being shy and withdrawn. my social needs are limited and i get those met outside of work. 

in every area of my life, i'm constantly struggling to find the balance between too much and too little. it's like i have a goldilocks complex.

blah.