evolving

now that i've identified myself as a generally annoyed person, i seeing things more clearly. partly because i'm recognizing that i'm the problem, not the situations, circumstances or people that i'm annoyed by. the other part is that this is helping me recognize that being perpetually annoyed is super anti-social behaviour. i'd have to say it's my biggest anti-social vice. since i believe in the value of being pro-social, i've gots to cancel out my annoyed attitude. i wonder what the opposite of annoyed is...

[checks dictionary]
Near Antonyms for 'Annoyed' delighted, pleased; content, happy, satisfied; calm, pacific, peaceable, placid, serene, tranquil

interesting! these are all good things. although, pacific seems a little out of place, but i trust that the dictionary knows what it's talking about.

being an annoyed person, i get annoyed at myself too. for example... yesterday, i rinsed out my tea infuser to make a fresh cup of tea. and instead of filling my tea cup with water, i 'filled' just the tea infuser (sans tea cup), and sprayed hot water everywhere. now... that's not a delightful, pleasing or happy situation, but i suppose i could choose to be grateful that i wasn't severely burnt or anything. while i can't be pro-social with myself, i could exercise self-kindness and not call myself an idiot.

oh learning curves...
when will i get the hang of being a proper human?