i watched mulan with joelle yesterday. that movie gets me every time. i was trying to wipe my tears without her noticing and to have a steady voice to explain the plot to her. it was difficult, but thankfully she was too young to notice the quiver in my voice. it feels so silly, but i just love how she fights in place of her father who was too proud to say he was too old and weak to go.
i've really been enjoying beckie's company. it's nice having someone else in my space, to think in we's instead of me's. we've been eating a lot of junk food, and putting on some pounds. we're on a romantic-comedy kick and go to the goat really late at night, then we stay up until 3 am.
i've decided to stop accepting bags when i make purchases. now that i don't need plastic bags for kitty litter they just keep filling up my bottom drawer. more times than not i can just place my purchases in my bag, and when they don't fit it's really not that hard to carry something in my hand, not harder than carrying a bag. however, i'm still trying to get into the habit of telling store clerks that i don't need a bag, but i'm sure it'll become habitual.
one of the things i applaud about the english language is conciseness. how most often a sentence can be condensed into a short string of words. that's not usually possible when someone has a limited vocabulary, they tend to depend on a lot of "really really"s or "very very"s.
i feel like i'm 14 again. wondering at my own decision making. questioning my good sense. rattled by internal conflicts.
my chance to say something seemed so brief, but it wasn't.
now i know i had plenty of time.
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i've been trying to get into that habit myself, les... i did it the other day at walmart and i was so proud of myself for not bring another bag home! it was easy because i had brought one of the PC 'green' (black) bags into the store with me to use as a basket while i shopped (i had it hooked onto the stroller)... anyway, i think you're definitely onto something!
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