i don't want you to take this the wrong way but, everything wrong with me is my own fault. haha. i really don't mean it that way. i mean, all the physical problems i've had have been self-inflicted. and usually because i wasn't taking care of myself. gained 50 pounds... my fault. got 8 cavities... my fault. i'm a healthy and fortunate person, so i think it's easy for me take my good health for granted and assume that ailments will pass me by. but they don't. i think i also tend to believe that i can do everything i want to do, forgetting my own physical limitations. i'm tired. if it was up to my brain, i'd be doing my dishes right now, but my body won't let me. i'm so tired. i didn't ellipticate today, which annoys me, because i'm still 10 pounds overweight, and it's not budging. i should have worked out, but i'm just so tired and weary. joy says my iron may be low, that women have lower iron levels after their period. i think she's probably right. that and i don't get enough sleep. no wonder i'm exhausted. i don't know how other people do it. maybe they don't have to get up as early as me, it's hard for to go to bed when there's other things i'd rather be doing. like hanging out with friends, or watching the office season three on dvd.
it occurred to me that i miss having housemates. right now i'm forgetting all that i love about living alone. i like having people around and not having to entertain them. it was nice having melinda and irina in the other rooms while i did my own thing. i look forward to beckie staying her during her christmas break. at least i assume she'll be staying here for a little bit at least. i've been spending too much time alone, and yet i have no energy to go out or have people over. living alone is making me feel detached and disjointed. people tell me it's the weather, and that i'll feel better when the light returns, i hope so. if not, i'll have to consider getting housemates again in a year or two, which would be a shame because i love my house.
knickers mentioned me going with her to pittsburgh in the new year. that would be exciting, i really liked pittsburgh when i was there last.
i think my hair looks awesome. i forgot how much i like it this way.
do you find you get tired much earlier
when you just want the days to end?
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awesome.
yes, i want your futon.
and i believe in air pressure, moon phases, and low-light playing a role in mood and energy. also PMS.
i had a perfect storm of 3 out of 4 of the above, but now it's over.
less than a week!!! :D
which one didn't you have?
i'm excited about you seeing all the changes i made to the maxi pad while you were away. it looks great (when it's tidy).
um... i'm not sure moon phases were relevant. but i might have been missing information. i mean, everyone talks about full moons, but i think new moons make me nuts.
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