cultivate

i feel like i'm breathing fresh air. a huge burden has been lifted from me and i can move about in any which way.

i had a brief, yet valuable, conversation with bren yesteday. she reminded me that life doesn't happen in sequence, but instead it happens randomly and chaotically. i think she's right. i've been living with my life on hold and really there's no sense to that. it's not a game of dominos, it's more like a game of pick-up sticks.

i've concluded that the next best thing to someone making me a casserole is when someone comes to my house and makes me dinner. melissa did that for me tonight. i felt kind of guilty that i sat at the kitchen table with my feet up yakking away while she made a salad. she's so lovely.

i think my body is reacting badly to my new deodorant. hm. in unrelated news, my hair is looking fantastic today. it's so long and straight and flat and layered. i love it.

i have a new sense of newness and wholeness and oneness. i hope it stays. i'd love to start each day with the same sense of possibility and wonder. it's amazing.

it's not about what's wrong,
it's about what's right.