lovely

does anyone else ever just feel compelled to do something? i wasted 45 minutes driving around ktown this evening trying to find a copy of "little women" because i felt an urge to watch it. totally random! i wish i hadn't wasted my time because i didn't find one :( one of these days my compulsions are going to get me into trouble.

marilyn brought me a box of cook books at work the other day. i guess a friend had given them to her and she picked what she wanted out of it and gave me the rest. there's one cook book that's looks particularly good. i think i'll go thru it and dog-ear all the recipes that interest me. there's another book that weirds me out a little, it's called "cook milk any flavour you'd like!" that's so bizarre! i'm sure i'd cook for myself more often if i didn't keep my fridge and cupboards borderline empty all the time. joy called tonight to thank me for the casserole i made them. they'd just finished it. i'm glad they appreciated it and yet still noted the irony that they'd just had a casserole i'd made and i was about to have some campbell's tomato soup for dinner.

as i talked with marilyn today i realized that the reason why i'm going on that business trip to pittsburgh next week is because they want to mentor me to advance in the company. she made some comment about me being there long after she retires. so i said to her "well you never know marilyn, hopefully i'll have kids someday and maybe i won't come back after that. i could really easily set up my own graphic design business". she seemed really surprised to hear this. it's as though it never occurred to her that i'd like to have kids eventually. i guess we've never talked about it before, i'm glad i said something because if nothing else it prepares them for that possibility down the road. partly why i decided to become a designer is so i could free-lance from home. i'm certain i could develop a fairly lucrative business, i already do a lot of probono work, so i'm sure i could get some paying customers thru word of mouth. but whatever, that's a long way down the road, in the mean time i'll take advantage of working for the man.

i can't believe it's after 9:30. i feel like i wasted my whole evening. i wish i'd found a copy of little women, at least i would be able to account for what i did this evening. i'm gonna go call little r, and drink some wine while i do some dishes (it has to get used up!). i'm feeling guilty about using my time so unwisely. although, i did do my workout so that's good, i felt like i had a little too much ass today :p

i don't know you,
but i want you all the more for that.

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addendum:
is a broken wine glass recyclable? because i just broke one while doing the dishes. my pinky finger is bleeding.