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when i was 11 years old i began youth group at my church. it was a 7 year venture that was a significant experience for me. when i entered youth group, two new youth leaders joined as well, their names were mim and ron. they had two young girls, who i would eventually babysit with frequency and are in fact my favourite girls out of all the kids i babysat. those two sisters paralleled joy and i quite a lot, the oldest was like joy, the youngest was like me. 14 years went by, and as the youngest of the two girls started at a new school she met an egotistical guitarist, who she eventually became close friends with. this said guitarist became a regular fixture in mim and ron's home until their daughter moved to ottawa and he moved into the house famous.

mim and ron recently learned of brendan and my new relationship thru the grapevine (aka my big-mouth sister) and they immediately wanted to have us over for dinner to grill us with questions. b and i were a little apprehensive as we drove there in the rain, but he kept telling me it was going to be one of those memorable experiences that we'll look back on and say "remember that time we had dinner with mim+ron??" dinner was lovely and the questions were manageable, although at times challenging. they like to interview young couples, i'm not certain as to why, but it's their thing. mim kept commenting about how much b's changed since those days. he's definitely not egotistical anymore, but i kind of like that he used to be :p

for a few brief minutes today i thought i forgot my lunch at home - that was very frustrating. i became agitated with myself and started going thru the inconvenience in my head as i walked to my car hoping to find my lunch box on the passenger seat. i was much relieved to find it, i didn't like the direction things were going.

the internet was down at work both yesterday and today. i was surprised at their tardy response, but it turned out it was an isolated incident and only myself a few others were affected. all is resolved now.

an eyeball. a table. a tune. a tear. and a tie. they are our secrets to have and to hold.

now that i smile,
now that i'm laughing even deeper inside.
now that i see,
now that i finally found the one thing i denied.
it's now i know, do i stay or do i go?
and it is finally i decide,
that i'm leaving in the fairest of the seasons.