i hear you call, i will run

ugh, i ate too much for dinner. i feel like barfing.

anyway. how are you? i'm doing well. so tim sent me a visual explaination to this whole elephant-ontario thing. its TRUE!! wow.

i finished "Our Lady of the Lost and Found" and have started "Bridget Jones' Diary: The Edge of Reason". its the funniest book i've read ever, or at least as far back as i can remember. when i was sitting in the waiting room of the doctor's office yesterday i was literally laughing out loud and hiding my face in the book. it was amusing to me because i don't think i've ever laughed out loud at a book in public before. hahaha, what a riot.

i did some clothes shopping yesterday and when i got home i showed melinda my purchases. she was all like "ooh, so feminine!! maybe by the end of 2006 you'll be a full-fledged girl!!" she was just teasing me, not trying to insult me. its true, i have become increasingly girly over the last few months. i don't know why really. i secretly like it. well i guess its a secret shared with you, me and everyone i know now.... but ya. i'm wearing my hair differently, and the make-up adds feminity. pierre from the screening room didn't even recognize me the other day. he was all like "oh lesley, i didn't recognize you... maybe its the glasses" and i was like "but pierre i'm not wearing glasses" which i wasn't. but maybe it was the make-up. april has that picture of me, her and mayelin (see entry "kick in the teeth") and 3 people have asked her "who's the girl in the middle" Ahahahahahaha. i find it a little offensive that when i'm dressed up or looking pretty people don't know its me. what does that mean do you think?

you know what i've JUST concluded? there's no "trick" to life. there's no definate "thing" to do that will make you're life "just fall in place". its not like a door that's hard to close and you can be like "oh there's a trick to this door, you need to hold the handle this way, then push it down". what works for one person, won't necessarily work for another person. i find that encouraging. just because suchandsuch doesn't work out the way its "supposed" to in "theory". it doesn't mean it won't at all. it just means you're different to the person beside you or whatever. every person is unique, so how/why expect an a+b=c life?

if the magic of the adverture overcomes we won't cry because it could be fun.