here we go...
last night i feel asleep at 7:00, woke-up at 12:44 and got into bed. i slept all night then got up at 9:30. it did me a world of good. i've been so exhausted and i think feeling tired was contributing to my depressed feeling.
i think its funny that there's a door on the front of my house that no one uses. it's practically a decoy because vacuum salesmen and the like always approach it while it's no one's front door.
since i was up so early i went out to the goat for breakfast. i wanted to finish my book, but i didn't. i thought "i'm on the last chapter, i'll be able to finish it in one sitting" but its like 50 pages long! one chapter!! so no, i didn't finish it, which is annoying because i'd like to move on to something else.
i've come to the conclusion that i'll always be confused.
i'm on this path of rediscovery. its pretty safe to assume that most people can tell i have a clear sense of myself. i'm sometimes OVERLY confident. however, i'm still plagued by "i feel stupid" or "i wish i was more like (blank)". so in a way, i'm on a journey of becoming the person i want to be. in my mind, i'm this bohemian person, but i'm not sure of my level of funk outwardly.
i was quite lonely at the goat today and stared off into space a lot. i just wanted someone i knew to come along and chat my ear off. i miss my friends who are faraway. and wonder about the hole left in my life. all in all i think i am mending, but am still quite wobbly emotionally and i wish my friends were here.
i'm going to see the bicycles with meghan next week. i hiked up princess street to buy my ticket at brian's record option. i must admit i've always disliked that store, its so messy and it overwhelms me. so i was extra pleasantly surprised by how friendly the man (who i assume is brian) was. i forgot to pick up my ticket to the banff film festival on the way back down so i'll have to swing by there on the way to the Y this afternoon.
well i'm off. until tomorrow i must say adieu.
i know i should go but i'll probably stay.
that's all you can do about some things.
7 comments:
it says the bicycles are at the 'artel'. where is would that be?
i have a link to the artel website under my links. its an art co-op at the corner of queen and sydenham.
brian is the nicest. he also actually knows where everything is in that store. well, not quite everything--i once found a recorder (the instrument) stuck in the bottom of a record crate. that surprised both of us.
And I thought it was something like the 'corel' center. silly me. i don't get out much. can you tell?
I was walking by the goat this morning at 9:30 and thought to myself, "I should check and see if Lesley is there; no she will be in bed still!"
I should have stopped by....
oh melissa, I'm sure she was still in bed (or at least in pjs) at 9:30. it's les!!! ;)
just teasing you lesley dearest.
haha meghan. a recorder! that's insane. melinda played a recorder in a talent show once when we were 10. my best friend jessica and i made fun of her. AHA.
no worries aphra, the artel is still relatively new, so i'm sure lots of people haven't heard of it. its not just you :p
ya, beckie's right, i was just getting out of bed at 9:30. i got to the goat at about 10:50. so for all intensive purposes you were right ;)
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