fortitude

i think i'll try my hand at gardening. well, not so much gardening as having indoor plants. oh, and i'm going to have an outdoor plant-pot too. but historically, its been indoor plants that i'm highly unsuccessful with. fru used to eat all my plants. so i always just kept a bamboo plant, but it's past it's best, and is about to be thrown out. it's possible that honey and pekoe won't have the plant eating tendency, so i'll try to convert my brown-thumb to a green-thumb. i like plants, they make homes more homely, more soft and more human. i like my plant in my cube, it makes it feel less stagnant.

today the new summer student said "i was thinking, all my friends are starting to get engaged, probably all your friends are having babies". it was sort of cool that she recognizes we're in different stages, but at the same time, i felt weird because i have yet to hit the "all my friends are getting engaged" stage. i find it odd that that it's apparently passed me by.

honey's neck is doing much better, although her cold doesn't seem to be improving any. BUT the bottle of medicine says i have to give it to her twice a day for 21 days, so i guess i shouldn't expect it to clear up pronto.

i feel kind of silly, but i think my out-loud reading is improving a great deal. i realize this seems retarded, but everyone has SOMETHING they're crappy at. no one should look down on me for being vocally illiterate. besides, being open this way just makes me vulnerable and there's nothing wrong with that. i've discovered that if i read every word i see... than everything flows smoothly. yup, i analyzed myself and found that i gloss over most words so my reading out-loud isn't really reading at all, it's more like guessing at the written word. oh i'm a silly girl.

sometimes i feels like my life is one big self-improvement. i'm always tackling something new.

all the reasons i gave were just lies to buy myself some time.