copper

this afternoon i took a stained-glass making class. it was really neat! at first it was really hard, i'm not really strong enough to make a good cut into the glass and i was thinking "man, i suck at this". but i got the hang of it, and really it didn't matter because you use a machine to smooth it out anyway. i made a butterfly. i really like it. i'd never used a sauder gun before, it was pretty cool.

i was surprised by my fellow classmates. they were all above 50 and most of them were men. i really didn't expect that at all. i'm not sure what's typical, maybe it was just my group. everyone was really friendly, although they liked to make jokes about birds and tools. i'm not really used to sexual jokes from seniors.

one of the men told me i should settle down soon. i let it bounce right off me, i'm getting used to comments like that and know i face a lifetime of hearing it. i don't really mind anymore. i think i've mourned and have moved on, now i know that i'm different, and i'm happy to be so. however, his comment got me thinking about people "settling down" because it's "time". it seems like such a bizarre concept. no one should "settle down" because they're "supposed to". that's really sad! where did these rules come from!?!? who has the right to impose a scheduled timeline onto someone ELSE'S life! several years ago, i took advantage of sleeping in on saturdays until 2 or 3 pm. this was generally frowned upon by just about everyone i knew, although melinda was pretty understanding about it, it just inconvenienced her as my housemate. but i don't do that anymore, i've grown out of that stage, but i'm so glad that i had that chance. my point is, i don't think people should be forced to be a certain way just because that's the norm (when i say this, i obviously am not referring to morality or parenting).

yikes! look at the time, terrence and helen are going to be here in 45 minutes and i need to clean my house.

i am thirty-two flavors and then some.