leprosy

it makes me blush a lot. each time i think of it in fact.

i blog everyday as an outlet. not as a habit, it's a consistent need that i have to share details of my life. today i have nothing to say, because i wrote back and forth with a friend all day. that's a huge factor to how much i spill in this space.

you know what? i can't be certain of the exact date, but it was 5 years ago around this day in january. it was both the best and worst day of my life.

i'm desperately craving spring. not that there's anything wrong with winter, but spring is my season. i was listening to a song on my ipod that gave me a flashback to how great spring is. i anticipate it with great expectation.

lord, make me an instrument of thy peace;
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.

o divine master, grant that i may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.
amen.