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when i was little i woke on saturday mornings and just lied in bed in a sleepy daze staring at my wall paper. it was white with pastel hearts on it in a diagonal pattern. i felt the most peaceful and most restful in those moments. to wake naturally and not be in a rush. this past saturday, i opened my eyes late in the morning and gazed up at the red curtain over my window. i lied their just staring at the pattern and again felt as i did when i was 11 years old.

b and i went apple picking this weekend. it was great :) i haven't been apple picking since my early 20s and it's been one of those things i've wanted to do every year but haven't managed to go for many different reasons. brendan seemed reluctant to go at first, but we had a really enjoyable drive out hwy 33, i showed him where joy and i used to play in the rockcut as kids, and he told me why a good melody is so important. we walked the paths in the orchards and noticed how the weight of the apples made the trees bend over. the fruit this year is excellent. the apples grew big and crispy and have no black spots on them as they did the last time i went apple picking. it was fun, and at the end brendan said he thought it was a great date :)

shannon lee was saying yesterday how much brendan has changed since he got married. that made me laugh with pride. i think he's the same, only more people are getting a glimpse of who he is.

it's hard to believe it's fall. the house is quite cold and i have to dress in layers. i seriously wore a sweater to work today, and i don't relish that as some of my friends do. melissa always likes to wear sweaters. she often makes that her facebook status in the fall - melissa is wearing a sweater :)

it's funny how time makes things better. i was thinking of the knickers last week, feeling almost nostalgic, wondering if i should be in touch. then i was told she was coming in for some consulting work and i suddenly felt like i couldn't breathe. i guess in that case time didn't make things better, but instead made me forgetful.

watching capitalism gun down democracy.