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ok, so yesterday at goodlife i bravely boarded the weight scales. i was calm and told myself "here goes nothing". i weigh more than i thought. 10 pounds more actually. no wonder my pants don't fit. but... unlike other times, i did not freak out or get upset. i'm there because i need to lose weight and now i know just how much i need to lose. 30 pounds. my goal is 30. i can to it!

the goodlife lady really pressured me to get a personal trainer. i thought they were free with my corporate membership, unfortunately they're not but they are offered at a reduced rate the first day of my membership. i told her i had to talk to my husband. my mom always told me when i was younger that when i was stuck in a tricky situation i could always say "i have to talk with my mom first" because she used to always say "i have to check with my husband". i like that because besides getting me out of a bind it also helps me be accountable to b. i don't think it would be wise to drop $300 without talking with the person i share my money with. so while i worked out i thought about it because i had to give her my final decision before i left. in our discussion, she'd told me "with a personal trainer you could lose 6 pounds by december". while i considered that, i concluded that 6 pounds is not worth $300, or even $160. a healthy weightloss plan involves losing 1 pound a week, so 10 pounds by christmas isn't revolutionary.

however, i recognize that what i have been doing (or was doing last winter) is not working, so i decided to look for some kind of personal training guide online, because i can weigh and measure myself what i need is some instruction on what activities to do. so i found "weight loss for dummies". it's already been super helpful. it said "the harsh reality of weightloss means working out 5 or 6 days a week". i'd only been working out 3 days. and i need weight training too, and i'd only been doing cardio. i'm going to really commit to a 5 day workout. it will be part of my work day routine. i'll go to goodlife directly from work, which means my evening will begin at 6 or 6:30 depending on how much time i have to spare and if i make other stops after work. in a way, i think that will be easier than picking and choosing when to go based on whether or not i feel like having a night off. i'm going to buy the actual weightloss for dummies books so that i can really get good coaching. heck, i might even read it on the treadmill :p for now, i think it's a better investment than 6 sessions with a personal trainer. the one of the main advantages of a personal trainer is being accountable to someone, and i asked b if i could be accountable to him. having his support is more important than a stranger, especially because it means him picking up the slack at home and seeing less of me. if he wasn't on board i don't think it would be feasible.

i'm feeling pretty excited about this. it's achievable. i feel equiped. and i feel really motivated! i WILL lose that weight, and i WILL fit back into my clothes. hooray! it's a challenge and that i will eagerly meet.

in other news... b quit his job at le chien noir yesterday. he's been working there for almost 3 years. b is loyal to the core plus he loved it, but felt that the time had come for him to move on. i'm proud of him for making that big step :)

we get this crazy combination of everything and nothing right.