peking

i backed into a fence at the Y tonight in my car.
i don't think the fence will ever be the same again.

my mom used to always tell me "one person can't be everything to you" and matt used to say "one person can't be the whole village". i'm starting to see what they were talking about. i have such an eclectic group of friends. all so different and special. and its interesting that each person plays a different role in my life. i've bonded with each person in a different way. for every struggle or problem i know exactly which friend to go to for support or guidance. that's amazing. friends i talk to about God, about my family situation, my job, my future, boys. i'm glad. i feel very fulfilled and blessed. i hope having me as a friend is a support and delight as well. i'm not perfect. sometimes i'm downright crappy. but i care, and i hope that shows through. i remember a line from a beatles song that goes "and in the end the love you take is equal to the love you make" i think that's true. its one of those "you get what you put in" kind of things. i've definately found that to be true. there was a brief time in my life that i had 2 friends. that was it. 2 great friends. matt and melinda. i was very shy back then, and had a horrible self-esteem. so i'm completely blown away by the deluge of friends i have now. i'm very happy. how did i make so many friends? by making better decisions and putting myself out there. and also via this blog. i've been so amazed by the friendships that have been formed as a result and i'm glad about that too.

night night.

a little reminder that it's alright.
it's alright.