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i actually had a lot to say yesterday but i was so tired and i didn't want to just write an entry out of obligation.

speaking of obligation, i had to help my dad move today. he's been working very hard, making loads of trips but was so tired that he felt like crying. i felt really badly for him so i told him to have a lie down and i would go to the store and get him some drapes and whatnot. before arriving at his place i had such a rotten attitude. i just wanted to bum out and have a relaxing holiday day, but i knew the right thing to do was to help him. i thought "when i look back, what will be more important that i bummed out or that i was there for my dad when he needed my help?" in the past, i've often made the wrong decision – going for what i wanted at the moment then later regretted my choice. well anyway, in the end we made a lot of progress and its looking good. for the first time in my life i felt i was taking care of him. i was a good daughter today.

thankfully i still got the chance to hang out with beckie and melissa this evening.

so i bought some new wooden hoops at modern primative the other day. and the gave me ear infections. it totally sucks. i peroxided my ears and the sticks so i hope that helps because i really like them and want to keep wearing them. i find it interesting looking in the mirror and seeing this girl looking back. i'm becoming increasingly girly. i like being a woman.

i've concluded that what i don't know might upset me, so its better that i don't know. this is a adaptation to the known saying "what they don't know can't hurt them". i remember my mom saying she'd never read my journal because she wouldn't want to read something private. i love that she respects my privacy that way. not all parents are like that. i can understand her logic. because sometimes things just upset us for no good reason, its not worth it if it doesn't better a situation.

tell me... why do we turn down the volume when we need to smell something?

ok well i think i'll go eat some cheese and watch some late night tv, just because i can ;)

you can't stay mad at the setting sun.