anthropomorphic

i didn't waste any time. first thing this morning i made the decision that i was going to the Y after work to reactivate my membership. i packed my little gym kit and off i went. it's been a year and a half since i was there last, i'd forgotten how much i loved going. usually in the spring i'm sick of it and just want to be outdoors. plus, i was trying to cut corners by buying an elliptical for my house, but in truth there's more to the experience than just the workout. as i read over my old entries last week, i found i talked about the Y a lot – it was another facet of my life, something other than work and church. i've missed having a hobby outside of my home/unrelated to next. i like people watching. i like the anonymity. i like that i can just do my workout without multitasking (cooking dinner, ignoring the phone, being distracted by things on my computer), i'm just there to workout. and i really like the showers (i get to stand up instead of my sit-down shower at home), and that i don't have to rush. at first i felt weird about how much i love the showers there, but i overheard two ladies talking about how much they love them too. so i'm not crazy :) i left feeling really great. i did weights for a half hour. i found before that weight-training actually effected my weight more than cardio, PLUS it's way faster. i'm in and out. it was kind of neat how i still knew how to use the equipment, and that i recognized a lot of the people. i weighted myself afterwards, and i've gained 14 pounds since i was there last – which i knew, most of it was in the first 8 months of cancelling my membership. i don't expect to lose all of that, but i'll probably change shape and feel more comfortable in my own skin. i really felt great afterwards, very euphoric. i'm very pleased by this turn of events. i'll try to keep my future Y talk to a minimum, as i'm sure it's not very interesting to read about :p OH, AND i think it's possible for me to sign up for a yoga class :D

i took "achtung baby" to work with me today. i haven't listened to it in several years. it has got to be my favourite album of all time. i kept trying to find photos that needed touching up so i could spend my day in a dream-like haze engulfed in the music. i tried to figure out why i love that album so much. it's not because of nostalgia, it's beyond that. those songs have such strong atmosphere to them that i feel like i could cut them with a knife. they're like first love, or a summer night, or warm pie, or a hot bathtub.

tomorrow i'm dinning with my family. i'm very curious about how they'll respond to my tattoo.

she wears my love like a see through dress.