fitting

it seems to us... that unscrupulous behavior is rewarded in this world. we try to play by the rules and behave responsibly, then we end up getting screwed over.

i found a dehumidifier on the side of the road today. it seems this is becoming a habit. although, i should clarify that it was at the same place as the tv i found. so it's not completely random.

it's interesting the instinctive fear that swells within a girl the moment finds herself down an alleyway being approached by three men. what's even more interesting is the fact that they were oblivious to the fact that the situation made me unbelievably uncomfortable. experiencing life as a man would be drastically different to experiencing it as a woman. and vice versa.

beckie was talking up the advantages of vitamin d tablets a few weeks ago, so i decided to give them a try. vitamin d is what we get from the sun, and it's often a vitamin d deficiency that causes the winter blahs. i've been taking them for over a week now, and already think it's amazing! my disposition is more like my summertime self. the difference is so remarkable that it alerted me to the fact that my winterself is so much less engaged in life than my summerself. today when i saw the snow outside i thought it was neat! i liked it! i thought it was cool and was happy to see it.

i think she knows
and i know it shows
that i'm confused all the time.