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life is topsy-turvy. you never know what will happen in one year, one month, one week and sometimes even one day.

i've retracted my offer on the house.

i was given a huge stop sign so to speak. it was a tough decision, but i don't think i'll ever regret not buying the house that was slowly dying of cancer. there are times in life that involve you putting everything on the line, if i had gone ahead i would've had hordes to lose, and by not proceeding i've got nothing to lose.

today i sat for a half hour on my ass on a street corner waiting for the bus once again. i was decompressing the house in my mind. and i was left feeling yet another pocket in my inner pomegranate has been discovered. i feel stronger.

for years i longed for something permanent. but i'm realizing nothing is permanent. and its ok to not know what's next for you. i'm not the only person who's life is up in the air. but one thing i know: i have good friends, good family and a heavenly father who loves me. what more could i ask?