flabbergasted

my bloody walls are still bleeding bloodiness.

i like how melinda's invitation to cook me dinner turned into ME cooking HER dinner and her being an hour and a half late. hahahaha.

i like that frank got all excited when i told him i'm painting my living room red. he COULD have been apathetic, but wasn't. he's great.

i like how relaxed i am when it comes to painting. it doesn't make sense to be uptight about messiness, or actually sloppiness. whatever, its just paint. big deal. i came to appreciate that when i helped ian paint his hallway, he was sooo careful and anal, it was so friggin annoying. this got me thinking about how i'm not a detail person or a perfectionist. i get COVERED in paint and don't care because i plan for that. this led me to thinking about how i'm not sloppy or careless when it comes to design or my job. interesting how that is. but pretty much everything else i'm like "meh whatever". ok well that's not entirely true. i was very organized when i moved and when i lead living room. but that's because i had to be overly prepared in order to avoid anxiety.

i like that i've finally nailed into my dad's head that i'd like him to call first before dropping by.

i like that i got to leave work early today because i had a doctors appointment re: my allergies.

i like my spectrum of friends – love rather. i'd like to give a shout out to my girls who have helped me paint! studio: done. living room: almost done. bathroom: progressing. porch: eventually.

there's holes in all the bottles of my long term.