so i must admit, i've wondered all day what i was going to say tonight because my brain has been swimming with loads of different things. i must proceed with caution. the two visit pspd only occassionally, but i know with just my luck they'll both read this. hello there.
anyway. speaking of the two, i've concluded i'm sick of it all. i'm tired of the drama. i can't deal with this anymore. so have thus concluded "i'm done with guys". not forever, just for now. before you start jumping to all kind of conclusions, let me just tell you... nothing has happened. i just woke up this morning kind of fed-up and just let go. ta-da. that's that. i feel a lot better. because i just don't care.
this morning when i was getting ready for work i happened to glace at my phone bill and noticed that my last name is spelled wrong. this explains two things, why tele-marketers always call me "ms. mckight" and why i still don't appear in the online phonebook.
the other day i bought 5 dollar shirt at garage. we were in a rush so i didn't try it on. i didn't notice until much later when i saw it in different light that the front of it is horribly see-thru. it was done on purpose down my left side. i thought at first it was a darker shade of yellow, but no, its missing every other stitch to make it see-thru. oopsy. i guess its my new "slutty dance bar shirt". i hope there's a concert coming up i can wear it to, because a dark concert is the only appropriate place to wear such a shirt. hahaha. its really not that slutty, just a little revealing compared to what i'm used to.
tomorrow is my field trip to CUTA. i mentioned that before, remember? i'm pretty excited, i hope its a fun time. i'm going by myself, knickers is arriving when i'm leaving. i'm taking the train, it should be relaxing. i'll take my knitting and a glamour magazine.
i've decided its important for my mental health and feelings of connectedness to spend time with friends every evening this week. surprisingly the week has really filled up, but probably because i'm not arriving home til late tomorrow evening so tuesday is out. i'm going to have to call someone when i get home so that i don't have a sense of anti-climax coming home to an empty house.
i skipped the Y tonight. i've been odd lately. its tricky when i don't force myself to do things i don't want to do, but i end up misrable when i've procrastinated something and i end up misrable for not just relaxing. i just can't figure myself out. i need a hug. and to spend an extended period of time with friends without having to leave because i have something else that obligates me.
i'm looking forward to getting my new glasses. i hope it doesn't take a week.
i appologize for my odd mood. sometimes we as people feel lost for no reason.
let me forget about today until tomorrow.
12 comments:
odd moods are a bit of what makes you you. and it's nice to have those ambiguous odd moods that can't be defined as something like "anger" or "disgust" or whatever.
if you get in before 10, you can call me tomorrow! it's the same price everywhere in canada!
my brother and sister in law are both teachers and Bell has their name wrong too. They don't mind. That way their students don't call them at home!
{u}... yep, that's just for you.
and i'm getting new glasses, too, so i know what you mean about looking forward to getting them. hope they arrive quickly for you!
lots of love from sask.
aww, thanks girls. group hug [uuu] :D
i feel less screwd up after spending time with rhonda. just sitting on her couch watching tv. its nice.
my love to each near and far.
it is so crazy how much has changed in two years les...
what exactly are you referring to? because in many ways things are exactly the same. i'd say your life has changed more than mine. you're in a totally different environment than 2 years ago. me? 50/50.
this is your blog so i am referring to your life.
in some ways my life is EXACTLY the same as two years ago. still working at bbd, still going to next church, still single. the only really obvious thing is that i'm not living on pine street anymore. i don't know other things are different i guess, that's why i think only 50/50. its true what they say about "the more things change the more things stay the same".
i disagree.
it would be more accurate to go back 3 years. 3 years ago my life was drastically different. i was a totally different person.
naaa i'd say two years.
;)
let's fight.
everyone changes from year to year. just some years have bigger leaps than others. that chunk of time 2 to 3 years ago was a signifigant one for me. that's all.
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