notes

i miss melinda's show on cfrc. now when i hear a song with strings in it, i think "oh, i should tell melinda..." then i remember. its disappointing. she had that show for over 2 years. listening for stringed instruments has become part of my music listening.

did i tell you i've started watching south park? i like it, its funny. actually, its shocking and that's why it makes me laugh. i can understand why its so controversial. but again, that's why its funny.

this week has gone quickly. i can't believe its thursday tomorrow already. i have so much to do, and don't have a free evening til next monday. i hope i'll be able to juggle everything alright.

i have mixed feelings. if she doesn't show up tomorrow, i know its a bad sign. and yet i still secretly hope she doesn't arrive. but its not because i'm hoping for bad news.

in times like this, i feel i need some mental breathing room. you're taking up too much of my head space.

i always feel like they forget about me when i'm not in the same room.

my inbox has been empty for hours. no new mail for lesley. very unexciting is my life at times.

isn't it amazing how our perspective of things is all relative compared to where we're coming from. the best example of this is temperature: right now its -3º and i'm cold. in a couple months -3º will be warm. my new pants are making me feel fat, and yet they're a size 9, so i'm not fat. but its all relative (that and the cut of the pants. part of me thinks clothes weren't made for people). its kind of like the whole "half-full/half-empty" thing. i would say i'm neither a half-full or half-empty person, because how full or empty the cup is depends on whether its being filled or emptied.

i was surprised this evening how my lack of desire to work on the yfc newsletter was equal to my desire to curl-up in a ball and lie on my bed. interesting how & when procrastination will show its ugly face.

i'll shame reality for doubting you.