frigidaire

so they made me work again today. this time i had to go into the office. i'm not happy about that. as a result i was very passive aggressive. i defiantly ate 2 donuts for lunch and blared jim guthrie instead of using my headphones. there was only me and argo so its not like my protest was effective. i sent knickers an email asking me for tomorrow afternoon off, i'm hoping that will be ok with her. i really missed having this afternoon to relax.

this was an odd day. i got up super early for church and yet spent my time making an omelette instead of getting ready so i didn't have time for a shower. so i decided to wear my hair up in a scarf. i liked it though, and a number of people commented on it. men & women alike. i hope it was because they liked it not because it was weird or crappily done.

i think i've come to the conclusion that as my hair goes grey, i'm not going to colour it. we'll see how that goes, i might change my mind. but not colouring my hair suits me. it requires too much effort to dye your hair. plus, it might not look too bad. but really, i think it'll be a while before i seriously have to consider that.

today i realized something... i am overdramatic as a stress reliever. when they called me into work i was so angry. unfortunately, i don't know enough profanity to fully express my frustration. however, i was a ranting and a raving in my head, and as a result i could laugh at myself about it. one time, tim got hit in the head with the ball at a baseball game. he fell down, got up, and fell down again. he did this repeatedly. everyone was so concerned and joy shrugged it off saying "oh he does that on purpose. being overdramatic makes it hurt less". i think i'm the same way.

frig, i've GOT to tidy my desk. its so overwhelming. argh! well i guess i'll get ready for bed.

the worst thing we could think at all is maybe we're not good enough.