synonymous

i had my dad over for dinner this evening. afterwards we sat on my front balcony looking out onto the street chatting for hours. we watched people on bikes go by. we watched a man pee in the park across the street. we watched people drive into the parking lot of the memorial centre only to stop for 30 seconds then leave again. we watched the sun set and the rain fall. we watched the taxis drive by, and a few cops too. we watched the street-lights flicker. we watched teenaged girls in short shorts. we watched teenaged boys on skate boards. the world passed along york street tonight, and we watched it all from the luxury of my box-seats. i have season tickets.

i was most delighted by the announcement that bombardier was awarded the ttc contract for the new streetcars. i was anxiously awaiting the news all morning only to find out right before noon. i printed out the article and took it into frank's office (i know how he works and that he needs to read things on paper and be able to high-light stuff). when i got in there marilyn was already telling him and a new guy the big news. the new guy seemed not to care or understand the signficance, all i could think was 'rookie'. the contract was awarded to a different division (which means my division isn't directly affected), but i'm still estatic. i'm thrilled as both a bombardier patriot and a canadian patriot. awarding that contract to bbd will keep a good 600-1000 employees in thunder bay employed for many more years. i feel very strongly that large canadian contracts need to be given to canadian companies as a means of protecting our own. i realize it may be cheaper to buy from asian, but it's not worth it in the long run. these events fuel my company pride and i was practically giddy as i went for my noontime walk.

days like this restore my hope that good things can still happen, good decisions are still be made. i wonder if it would be too much to ask that i get such a reminder every day.

i've carried this preconceived false belief
that secretly everybody's fooling me
just acting sweet.