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i stayed home from work sick today. i've developed a cold on top of my allergies. bummer. although, it makes sense because i couldn't figure out why i was still all stuffed up inspite of my allergy pills. i also thought it would do me some good to catch up on my sleep. i haven't been sleeping well since moving into my new place. it's been a really light sleep like i'm semi-conscience the whole night. its awful. its probably a combo of being in a new place, the noise from the street, the darkness of my room, my kat's new obsession of sleeping right beside my face (plus he's learned how to open my door...), and the fact that there's still lots to unpack. so ended up sleeping till 1:40 then decided to get up. i've tried to just be lazy today and use my sick day as an actual sick day instead of a chores day. although, i did apply another layer of paint on my cabinet doors and hung my posters up in my room. it looks and feels more like home in this room, and i think the whole house is progressively becoming more familar. i'm pleased.

i sat out on my balcony reading my book for a while this afternoon. it was a beautiful day and that's such a great space. i'm finally making some progress with memors of a geisha, only about another 20 pages to go. hurray! not that i dislike this book at all, its just taken me 5 months to read it which is odd. i'd kind of like to move on to something else.

inspite the fact that physically i'm feeling pretty crappy, i'm feeling better emotionally. yes, i'm once again on the upswing of the blues. i'd imagine you get pretty tired of my occassional "whoa is me" rants, but they don't last long, so i hope they are bareable. i'm feeling content. feeling on top of things. i'm thankful, things are good. my future is uncertain, but my current situation is pleasant so that's what matters.

this morning when i was at a&p at 7:20 a.m. (i needed to get some kleenex, some coughdrops, etc) i bought my first watermelon of the season. yay!! its watermelon season. i heart watermelons. i'm uber excited, i've been waiting all year for this. last year my first watermelon of the season sucked ass. it had decomposed and when i cut it open just poured all over the kitchen table. i learned my lesson after that to avoid yellowish watermelons. beckie lent me some dvds so i think later tonight i'll settle down with amelie and have some watermelon. i've got to be careful not to sneeze with the melon in my mouth. that's happened to me before. several times. it ends up getting sucked up the back of my nose and stuck in my nasal cavity. its bad news.

as life gets longer, awful feels softer
well it feels pretty soft to me