is it just me... or is it normal to feel invincible and vulnerable at the same time.
i can't put into words what i'm feeling right now. i wish i could post the melody of this song. it tells it all.
i've been thinking a lot lately about how other people perceive me. i don't generally get my self-worth from other people, and i'm not a people-pleasure so i don't particularly care what others think. what i've been wondering is how i come across to other people, whether or not it's the same as how i perceive myself. i'm been particularly wondering about what negative things people might say about me behind my back. i wonder if i've would be shocked and horrified, if i'd agree with them, or come up with petty excuses for my behaviour. i dunno. i guess i'd rather not know. all i can do is apologize for all my short-comings. regardless, i've concluded that my reflection looks different to myself than to those around me. it makes me curious about this version of myself i've never met. i wonder if i'd like her and what i'd think.
i dunno, i feel like people (strangers/acquaintances) look at me different in my new car. i find that puzzling. why should my vehicle make any difference.
i'm blossoming. and it's not even raining.
one by one the seasons change you.
2 comments:
are you listening to the acorn? i like the concept of johari's window. there are four realms of awareness. the open self (known to self, known to others); the hidden self (known to self, unknown to others); the blind self (unknown to me, known to others); and the unknown self (not known to me, noy known to others). sounds like you would like to peek into the blind self. thought you looked beautiful the other night by the way. have a great day. love bren
thanks bren!
i WAS listening to the acorn! dents is my new favourite song.
wow, that's very cool. i like it when my thoughts align with established philosophies that i didn't know about. indeed blind self.
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